Last Birthday...!

So my dear readers you may be thinking what is this last birthday all about......

This birthday i am not so happy as compared with other birthdays those i came across...
Every year i will be the happiest of all in this world and i feel am at the top of the world and i cannot express the feeling i get on my every birthday,but this birthday of mine has a lot of feeling involved....

May be i am feeling that this is my last birthday as a girl(bachelor)..because you never know where i would be the next year and how i would be..I mean may be i will get married with a person unknown till now and i have to celebrate my birthday with him..this feeling of mine are eating away my brain a lot..I know this will happen to every girl or boy in their life and is quite common but still..........some unknown feelign is making me feel sad.

May be i have a fear of losing my parents,sister and friends all of a sudden....

May be i am having the feeling of what did i achieve these all years after my birth....

I am feeling lonely,departed and isolated a lot this birthday..

Did i ever give happiness to anywhere anytime or did i always hurted them with my behaviour or any of the way i am..

Should i change myself for others..or am i ok for this society..am unable to decide about myself but the saddest part it is that everyone will tell you know better about urself than others but i dont know myself properly i feel...

How to know about myself?????Is there any process to know about ourself by any test..Can anyone help in this matter....

Should anyone change themselves for others in any mode/point of life??? this question of mine is puzzling me a lot from many days..

Do anyone remember me as a friend,as a sister,as a daughter..whatever may be the relationship..am i special or not..,will it make difference if i am not there in their lives????

And first and foremost will i be special for anyone in this little world of mine at least...Hmmmm all questions in my mind and not one answer..Who can and will ever answer these questions of mine...

I think these questions will also question you'll about your lives even..
So be clear about yourself coz i don't want anyone to be in my situation...i know the pain involved in being in this kind of situation i am right now.

So know yourself better and live happily ever after.

Have a Happy and joyful life in your future.